The time is 2:09 a.m. and I am sitting here restless and I have to go to work at 10 a.m. I just got finished reading a very nice story about the YYH gang. I guess I've been feeling lonely in an intimate sort of level, I'm having those damn romantic feelings and yearning again. Damn It!
I hate feeling this way. It kind of makes me want to be in "that: sort o relationship, but it never seems to work for me. The guys I usually end up trying to take advantage of me in some way. Or trying to talking me into sleeping with me. They won't come out and say it, but they say it in their actions. They always expect more than I'm willing to give them and seem a bit pissed and try to cling to me in an attempt to try and try and change my mind.
It bothers me greatly. Why can't we just have fun and be together without having to get all physical before I'm ready. I also worry that when I finally give it up that he'll just run off and leave because he got what he wanted. I know that's cliche, but I really worry about that.
Is it so wrong to want someone nice, intelligent, considerate, fun to be around, to have good conversations with, and just have a good time with? Is that so much to ask? He doesn't have to be perfect, just fun, ya know. And if we happen to hit it off and end up being together, I don't want that to change, and I'd like him to be there for me afterwards.
Ah, damned cursed female urges and emotions. Oh well sad
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