Its been raining so much here. All the seasons are screwed up. Its still spring and the temperature should have atleast hit the 90's by now. I'm not complaining but its freaking me out.
Usually the rain makes me sad and depressed, stressed out and anxious. But now I can just sigh and admire it, letting my breath go and have the rain take it away.
So I've been more observant than usual and I looked out the widow and between the drops of silver drippings and smudged green ocher leaves I see the bright mahogony red of the porch and how it stands out so much from the green of the grass and the violet flecked creapers on the rocks.
I love the reflection on the grass too and the sound is just amazing. I'm listening to Eternal by Evanesence and the interlude with the rain fits perfectly.
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I've been so stressed out lately that I haven't been able to see those things and now that schools out I feel like some one took off my blind fold. I hate being stressed out, when I am I get sick and tired and am prone to panic/anxiety attacks. Which really struck hard towards the end of the school year. I started worrying my friends by being tired and overly unresponsive and not eating at all. Don't worry. I started eating again..mostly.
I feel better now, its great and the rain totally calms my nerves.
