This Song describes my life perfectly. things are so f***ed up in my life right now i don't know what to do anymore. i wanna scream and i wanna stomp someone's head in. i need help with life before i just give up completely and become like my older sister. i don't want that but if things don't get better i might have to give up on my dreams to take care of her and my family. i hate it. things can never go the way i want it can it? when will things get better? Does God really hate? Will life give up on me? These are some of the questions that go through my head at the present moment. I think these things then step out of my room with a smile on my face that fools the world into believing things are ok.
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One by one the scars line the arm of the girl in the mirror. She cries softly to her self. "why can't things get better?" She looks into the saddened face in the mirror and sighs. "oh well. I guess it's back to the same old thing." She cleans her face of the tears and grime. Then she looks at her self in the mirror and puts on a smile. "Just one more day" she tells her self. "I just need to get through one more day." She wipes her face again, covers it with make-up, and walks out the door. "These people will never know what is wrong. Nor will they ever care." She recites that to her self as she goes through another pain filled day.
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Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
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