MANN I AM SO ALONE.. YEA I GOT FRIENDS BUT NONE OF THEM KNO WHAT I FEEL... I FEEL LIKE CRAP. BASICALLY EVERY DAY.. THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY LIFE WHO I WOULD DO NE THING FOR JUSS MADE ME FEEL LIKE s**t AND WORTHLESS AND IT HURTS RLY BAD.. I TRY TO DO EVERY THING N THE BEST WAYY I CAN AND IT ENDS UP MESSED UP... I WAS BORN ALONE AND ILL REMAIN ALONE.. THAT SHOULD BE MY CATCH FRAZE.. AND AS I SIT HERE CRYING MY EYES OUT THINKING OF CUTTING MYSELF... I JUSS WISH MY LIFE WAS DIFFERENT I WISH I COULD ENROLL N TO A ACTUAL SCHOOL AND MAKE EVERY 1 HAPPY BUT HELL ITS TO LATE.. I TRY TO BE THE BEST MICHELLE I CAN BE I AM BRAVE AND PUT UP A SMILE WHEN I CAN BUT DEEP DOWN INSIDE IM DYING INSIDE... IF I DONT DO THIS WRITE I MESS UP MY ENTIRE LIFE AND WHAT KIND OF LIFE DO I HAVE GOING? NO KIND NE 1 WOULD WANT... I RECENTLY ENDED IT WIT CJ [ONLINE BF] AND I FEEL RLY BAD IDK Y I GUESS ITS ANOTHER THING I ******** UP.... NE WAYY AS EVERY DAY GOES BYE I FEEL EVEN WORSE ABOUT MY SLEF AND THE THOUGH OF SUICIDE RAGES N MY MIND.. BUT I ALWAYS REMEBER THIS IS MY ONE LIFE AND I AINT GOT NO OTHER.. AND THE THOUGHT LEAVES MY MIND WITH JUSS A FEW CUTS ON MY WRIST.. I LIKE s**t AND I JUST DONT KNO WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT... CRYING NEVER HELPS AND NEITHER DOES THE CUTS.. SO IDK NOW.... I FEEL AS THO' I AM WORTHLESS AND I DONT TRY BUT ITS NOT LIKE I DONT WANT TO TRY... I DO I SWEAR... I AM DAMN DONT EVERY ONE TRY.. I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND Y MY BODY IS BEING THE WAY IT IS I SEE SOMETHING I WANT TO DO FOR EXAMPLE: PLAY A NEW SPORT, AND I TRY AND AFTER A WHILE I GIVE UP... I DONT GET IT IT.. U KNO. AND JUST TODAY [LIKE I SAID EARLIER] THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON N MY LIFE TOTALLY MADE FUN OF ME. SHE SAID SHE WAS TEASING BUT IT HURT SO MUCHH IT DINT FEEL LIKE TEASING. AND AS MY TEARS DRY I STILL FEEL LIKE s**t AND I KNO I AM DIFFERENT AND I AM ALONE N A LOT OF DIFFERENT WAYS. BUT I ALSO KNO I LOVE MY SLEF FOR WHO I AM NOT FOR WHO I TRY TO BE.
WELL I FEEL A LITTLE BETTER AND A LITTLE UN BETTER BUT NE WAYY TTYL
xXMiChEllE17Xx Community Member 
|
|
Community Member