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Today has been... good.

I've gotten so much support today.
When I told people about my problems, they said they'd pray for me. That made me so unbelievably happy, you just don't even know... I mean, I started laughing and I couldn't stop(kinda hysterically), and I started tearing up. No one... has ever told me that before. I put my Lord above everything else in my life, and knowing that someone else was praying for me like I do, it... it's a great feeling. I'm getting support. My parents-- heck!-- my whole family is Christian, and so are the majority of my friends. It's so helpful... And I go to a Private school. My worries were overwhelming me, and then, today, I was reminded of the Lord.

It was... AWESOME. No, more than awesome.

I was watching Joel Osteen on the TV, and he was talking about exactly what I needed to hear.
'Have a positive outlook on life.'
And the like. It was wonderful, I love Joel Osteen. I've actually been in his crowd before, but at that time, I didn't know how he would impact my life. Whenever I catch him on Sunday nights, it's magical. I watch him, and listen to him, and all my worries melt away at the talk of the Lord.

Yus.

Another thing... D ';
Brittnae cut herself(on purpose).
She had to go to the ER.
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I made her promise not to do it again.
She wasn't able to have a sleepover tonight so we could talk, but she can tomorrow night. Man, am I going to set her straight. mad
She can't do that.
I've got too much stuff going on to let her kill herself. I'd loose my mind if I lost someone else.


I just realized. I've been given the perfect setting. The best: parents, friends, teachers, school, and anything else I could think of-- that I could ask for. I've got a good Christian influence... and I'm crapping all over it. I'm fat, lazy, deppressed(feel sorry for myself), and I'm hardly giving a shnap about it.
And lots more.
But I'm not going to list it.
Because I'm having a spiritual moment, and I don't wanna ruin that, too.

I'm gonna get back on track, anyway. So, there. Seventh grade, I vow here and now, will change my life forever, and I will name myself known and as respectable as my father.
I've... never really ever wanted anything more than to impress my dad. He's the greatest, I just want him to be proud of me...