alright, so yesterday Zero had to go to his dad's house and so i was sad about that cuz he can't get on the computer at his dad's.
and then about ten minutes AFTER that, Niki PM's me and she's like "I hate your guts, I hate that you're going out with Denzi, I'm not going to be your friend anymore until you resolve this" or some kinda s**t and so i'm like "DUDE WHAT THE HELL???" I get that she thinks I'm a hypocrite (she's told me before, and i realize this, but i don't need her telling me), and she's told me that I once said that I would never go out with Denzi. Which i find quite insane, because i went out with Denzi the summer before (i believe i've told her that) and I don't even remember saying that! Ether it's my mind going or she just made it up. I'm not quite sure.
But the last message she sent me at the end she's like "I don't even know why I'm living anymore" or something like that and I'm totally afraid she's going to commit suicide, but she REFUSES to talk to me so I have nooo idea what to do. And part of me doesn't care and is thinking "hey, you don't want to be my friend, fine! go and kill yourself, but if you don't die don't come running to me for sympathy." and the other part of me is just like, "OMG WHAT DO I DOOOO!!! SHE CAN"T KILL HERSELF!! GOD WHY ARE YOU SO CRUEL TO MEEEEEE?????"
And so life is just suckish right now and i want to lay down in bed and curl into the smallest ball i can make myself and just go to sleep and wake up and find that this was all a weird dream and it was just saturday morning, but since i'm writing this, i know for a fact that it's real and it's really making me depressed.....god i'm just going to stop talking....
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