I thought I could avoid it w/ my simple nature and premature in some immature in others life style. But alas I was not spared, sure it's not the worse thing ever but I'm struggling in math (something that never has happened before) my teacher is nice I guess but I don't think she has very effective methods to get it in our brains and remember them (it looks easy when she does it on the bored then when you turn to your homework "poof" wink . Then there's the whole "ugg some of the people I hang out w/ just drive me nuts!" not all but some I mean for 1 obvious person/classmate who I really really really don't like
(I'm not allowed to say hate)
but just keeps getting on me. Some more people w/ such poser or given up attitudes but I just try to smile through it all.
(Screaming and bleeding inside honey)
O Spanish isn't turning out really well and I suck at papers! I have someone always on my nerves in every class making me wanna just throw a dry ice bomb at her.
(cause she's in every class of mine)
My parents think that anything emotional to me is turning me into a pycho and said it out loud. So their teenage daughter bursts out crying and starts telling them the problems in her life and they scream at her calling her a nut and that she already has an autistic son they don't need an insane daughter as well. I can't really talk to anybody because I really don't wanna bother anybody and lose whatever rep/pieces of my dignity that I still retain. There's the constant nag if 'what if' I'll be stuck hanging out with this girl forever when I can't stand her. There's this guy that I'm sorta having feeling for but I'm not sure of my feelings cause I never had a crush before but I so do not deserve someone as cool as that but am constantly getting depressed over the matter. My low self esteem isn't improving. I'm loosing my grades, I'm not all that athletic, I'm no Miss Congeniality, I know I'm not pretty, I don't even have a personal uniqueness to be proud of. Yes I'm a cliche girl! mY WORST NIGHTMARE!!! To be so ordinarly boring stressed
On the bright side my play is going well
then again if I don't get over 90% in everything in my SATs dad won't let me join drama next year.... (too bad he told me that a month AFTER SATs were over)
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