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I was completely bruised before I was born.
You can't see these bruises, but they are there, they always will be.
In the present day, I put these bruises out of my mind, trying to believe in the best of mankind.
But they were always there, they'll always be there.
When I was younger, I didn't know about them, but as I got older, I started to feel them, right beneath my skin.
The more I learned about my family, the more I felt the bruises.
The more I learned about myself, the more you could see the bruises.
The more I learned about the true intentions of the people in the world, the more I tried to hide my bruises.
The more I tried to hide these bruises, the more I cut myself off from people.
The more I cut, the more I bled.
The more I bled, I became bitter.
The more bitter I became, the angrier I became.
The more angry I became, the more violent I became.
The more violent I became, the more I cried.
The more I cried, the more they laughed..always with the laughing, the beatings, the constant torture...
One day, I'll probably lose my mind...I'll get myself into some s**t that I can't get out of, and I won't be walking out of that alive.
Why don't I just stop now?
Might as well enjoy the ride, because I may never know all the cool and fun people I may meet.
I took a leap of faith at one point, and met a few of the coolest people on this whole ******** planet.
They're the best friends I could ever have had, and nothing can change that.
Well, almost nothing...My endless chatter might put them off talking to me for a while...