man he won't even say the world love near me. today was caarar day and i enter the audatuim with him. of cousre we sat near our friends. i sat near a friend who i spent time with a lot. she told me she'll hook me up with him. While the person was talking he kicked my foot and we were playing. Than when he thought i wasn't looking he wrote something.
"i love you" i was about to hug him for that but i didn't for some reason. so i pretend not to know. when we were letted out to lunch i told my sister. so i decide to ask him. he said nothing and i just kept asking. All the anwser turned out the be the same. i told him i will figured it out he crossed it out ( was a heart shape. i just relized there was an other one that he made a couple weeks ago when i didn't know he like me i am so simple minded. you have to tell me in order for me to know sometimes.) He promise to tell me on the phone. so i trusted him. on the way to class my sister told him and was right he ran off. so told my friend " everytime i try to talk about going out he runs away or even doesn't even look at me"
right after i got home i just called him. his dad picked up and gave it too him. at first he didn't want to say it till i kept saying please. still he didn't taking but i heard a sigh. my guess he was about to tell me but than he asked me to ask my sister. i just wanted he hear him say it. man it is just three simple words.
Everyone wants me date him but he has to aske me out. always the same type of person. he has dated about two of my friends and one of them don't even talk to him no more (not sure why?) i just don't want him to be hurt if i have to dump him. (sigh) why can't he just say it for cring out load. he is making everything noticable. like one time he hide my drink from this guy he takes a sip out of my bottle ( doesn't touch his lips though lol). he gave it back to me when he left and said "i hate it when he does that" Another story was that he said something about tickling me that (i can't remember! oh well)
well you see the point. he just can't say anything to me. when one of my friends said we are going out he made sure i was not listing and said
"i haven't even gone out with her and stop talking about you know what" (note:thats what he was thinking but i can talk and listen at the same time)lololololol.
oh in anime club which he is not in. god sake what if he was in it? his other friend told me he was going to ask me out to the dance but couldn't go. i just told him i don't go to dances. and he said " isn't this the last one"
i said " yeah" and we laugh for something. i don't know what though.lol. to many problems. i just want to hear it from him. not from others. than i'll be happy. i just hate it when that happens but i just act as everything is normal even though it's not. i just don't get it. just too hard. to make it worse. everytest that is coming up is big grades so i have to forget the fact of that and study. i can't have things like that enter my mine or i'm going to forget everything.
 akira0164 · Sat Apr 19, 2008 @ 01:53am · 0 Comments |
