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This weekend was pretty bad. sweatdrop

I don't know the last time I cried that much...

But I'll explain. It really came in two parts with Nick bugging me to go to the doctor as the final straw. I'll do a little list since those are really easy to follow.

Nick's final straw: I have this mole that has changed colors, hurts a bit, and now itches. I know I need to go to the doctor and check it out, but I haven't even told my Mom yet with everything else that has been going on. I'll get to it today, but I'm going to Nationals tomorrow and I'm not even near ready for my dream. I don't think I've made it clear to him that I've dreamt of going to Nationals since my sophmore year of highschool.

Bad Thing One: My grandfather is pretty much dieing. They think he had a heart attack last week and of course Mom told me this the weekend before Nationals. But you know I was dealing with it until Mom told me thing number two.

Bad Thing Two: I guess I should bring this out into the open, but I'll have to warn you if you're ever around my parents try not to let on that you know and of course don't spread it around. My parents have asked me not to tell anyone, but I think bottling it in has really taken a toll on me and perhaps my relationship with Nick because with everything that my Mom has said...it just scares me.

Ummm, my parents are getting separated and it bothers me. I wont ever tell my Mom that but, yeah. Dad will be moving out in July and then we will be looking for another, smaller house in the Riverside school district since it will be just Mom and Andrew for most of the school year. It pretty much sucks.