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I feel it more and more this sadness deep inside, when i close my eyes, when i think of you, as i slit my wrist, as the blood follows through. everyday my heart breaks a little more my soul crushing and i just cant find the words to explain all the sadness and misery and it just hurts so bad i want this sad feeling to leave i want this numbness to be gone. Pain is all i wanted and blood is what i got. so happy at one time but those memeries are gone im done with that it seems impossible the way i live.he'll never understand none of you can. everything just keeps gettin worse. always just one thoght on my mind... no what that is its suicide. but i keep on reminding myself why i still live its a promise i made cuz if i break he'll never forgive. i keep stopping myself holding back but sometimes that just wont work for me thats when i bloody my wrist. i will always think of him ... until i die

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