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Posted: Tue Aug 02, 2005 @ 05:05am

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	. . . I wish I could get away, I wish someone would 'get' me, I wish not to die, I just want to know someone would care, Really care not just say it, I give up, I just cant take it anymore, If I have a gun I'd use it, On what? I dunno, not me though. . . I dont know if its my lack of sleep thats making me think this, if its what I really think I dunno my parents, I hate them, my grandparents, well, I hate them to. I can't trust anyone I know in person except one, who hasnt let me down yet, they are just there. I dont know what to think of them yet, but I <3 them. This next month is gunna suck.. like everyone is ****** busy with something sad** humf...

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Commented on: Tue Aug 02, 2005 @ 08:53am


	I am sorry. You know what you should do? You should go to the store and buy all of the HIM music you can get and play it loud and shove it in thier faces! Oh, at a church, it says It all happened because of HIM... that made me think about you. 3nodding

Commented on: Tue Aug 02, 2005 @ 01:17pm


	::Walks in with a giant gong:: Okay, yush life will suck for the next few weeks; so bare with it; tis all I can say, and any time you feel like shooting someone, doodle a picture of them in front a target board with a plunger arrow over their faces or something like that; satisfying and incircumstantial in court later :3 Look, you sound like heck, but you know it's only for a bit longer; hold in there... And for Jeebus sakes wouldja take the gun outcher sig? ^^;;; Yer making me edgy, lol... ::Smashes the gong and walks out::

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Commented on: Tue Aug 02, 2005 @ 10:14pm


	Now see, you're only 14, that alone is enough to live for. I felt crappy myself when I was your age, but I also remember those days as being the happiest days of my life now that I look back. Try being 22 and not having anything to look forward to. Try being 22 and having no idea what you wanna do with yourself. Try being 22 and feeling lost and confused all the time with no clear way out of your misery. Try being 22 while living in a poor family with a huge pileup of financial debts and being expected to work in a scary job just because it's high paying...all for the 'family's sake'. stare Try being 22 and live with the shame of still being told what to do by your parents all the time. Ever since I became an adult I've always felt like I've been living in a prison. Trying to seek refuge from it all may help give you some short-term relief from it all, but running away from problems only makes it worse in the end. Despite all this, however, I still manage to find some enjoyment with life wherever I can find it. Though still...I do understand that it can sometimes be rough feeling the way a lot of people do nowadays no matter how young they are... It's even worse when you feel totally worthless like you never were meant to exist...almost like a waste of space... Sometimes you just wish you could get a hug every now and then to make you feel like you're somebody... Sorry if this isn't much help; it sounds more like I'm the one who needs help... But I really mean it when I say that youth is something you just can't let to waste. You can buy back looks but you can't buy back youth. So enjoy it while you can. Whatever you're going through, I wish you luck with everything. ::hugs::

Commented on: Wed Aug 03, 2005 @ 08:24am


	ok, haha, of course 'HIM' is gunna make someone think of me xp and I'm not gunna shoot myself.. I just think that gun is pretty and fits with the saying and life sucks, end of story, but I do plan to be a millionair ><

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Commented on: Wed Aug 03, 2005 @ 03:57pm


	Love is more important than money. 'Nuff said.

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	hryey

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Commented on: Wed Aug 03, 2005 @ 10:37pm


	sorry about that. if there's anything i can do to help, i'll try. maybe you need some friends to make you smile? blaugh

Commented on: Thu Aug 04, 2005 @ 01:07am


	omg, when I was at Tae Kwon Do the grand master was listening to HIM eek Also, it seems like you are happier biggrin That makes me super happy! mrgreen

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Commented on: Thu Aug 04, 2005 @ 02:45am


	farts yeah!

Commented on: Thu Aug 04, 2005 @ 05:07am


	It's not that I'm any happier.. its just I've had a while to calm down and reflect on my thoughts

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Commented on: Thu Aug 04, 2005 @ 11:49pm


	There is no way to reflect on your thoughts your mind starts repressing them after a while and leads to many mental illnesses depression being one of them which we have already seen. I know your thoughts they are the same as mine you cant reflect nor change them you are doomed to suffer in life and death, blame not your self but god (if there is one) your mind makes you think they are not so bad but it is just a defense mechanism which is faulty... We are both doomed to be losers who no one will ever love for ever.

Commented on: Fri Aug 05, 2005 @ 03:24am


	Some how your depressing words, reasure me, and now I feel slightly better.. hmm... Wounder how that works =S?

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Commented on: Fri Aug 05, 2005 @ 09:44pm


	I speak the truth sorry confused

Commented on: Sun Aug 07, 2005 @ 05:37pm


	dont be it actually made me feel a lot better xd heart ninja arrow mrgreen

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