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I feel fine, But I have no clue why I'm crying.
It seems my tears just slip out any random times.
My mom wonders what's wrong, I told her I dont know.
I told her I felt fine.
To tell you the truth I really dont know whats wrong I just cry, it just seems easier
to let my pain out then to ignore it and smile.
My friends dont see the real me.
I hide me from myself.
Its scary, I acually thought about killing myself.
I'm afriad, of myself.
I really dont want to die, but when I was crying I thought about it.
I thought about the easiest way, the less painfull way.
I thought about me being happy and seeing my grandpa again.
I thought about how people would be sad, but they would get over it.
That night I had a plan.
A full fledged plan, and my mom helped me out of it.
I feel terrified of myself now.
I feel scared to be alone.
I just need someone to talk to about this.
I'm scared, of myself.