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When I decided to make the manga featuring myself and my friends I thought it was going to be a fun project about how our characters work as a team to protect the land from threat... and also to protect each other....
In the end my character makes the biggest sacrifice by dying...
But back then I would have never known that it was foreshadowing something... That inwardly I had known that I would be moving to a new school next year...
I put that concept under "might" but... I woudln't mind anymore...
Another strange thing... I never guessed that when in the sequel the characters all have gotten lost as an affect of Fukitsu's death at what's important in life... and also what they were meant to do... They've forgotten the meaning of true value...
Another foreshadowing... about how friends can forget that we are friends and soon they start eating at each other because of anger...
Many assumptions can come out of impressions and they might be interpretted in the wrong way. One person can mearly be saying something and you can catch them in the wrong way, thinking their upset but their not...
How do I put this?
Damn it all... what's the point of all of this.....
I've never felt so lost in my entire life....
Is it right to even have an identity crisis to early in your damn life?
Why have things turned out this way....
I've apologized to my parents for my outburst last week, yet my mother and I barely share more than a sentence with each other....
And now a friend from here is mad at me all because I misunderstood something? This isn't right... I've made a mistake and now you're coming down hard at me for that mistake?
Do I have to purposely be a perfectionist just to please any of you?
Great... an online public confessional? What's the point of making this private when words on a surface is the only way I can express what I truely feel....
I think I should leave Gaia for a while to think about things.....
And maybe... I should just spend some time alone... to think about things some more...
Hopefully... my new life next year will hold the answers... Maybe not...
One things for sure... I was made independant... because I was meant to be alone...
Yours truly,
the Stray... This will be my last day...
 Stray XIII · Sun Mar 02, 2008 @ 06:36pm · 1 Comments |
