hey...
this past weekend was really stressful. i went graduation dress shopping with my friend Maria, she's 40'ish so she knows that sort of thing, but i swear, the second i got into that store i started to hyperventilate. it was awful. i wanted to crawl into a hole and die. i am not proud of the way that i look. i admit that i'm overweight and i'm excersizing and eating better and there's been improvement, still, it was pretty traumatizing for me. to top it all off dad sprained his back on saturday and he's still in huge amounts of pain. my original prayer teacher is coming back to classes starting tomorrow, and here's the hitter (she was out because of her recent diagnosis of breastcancer), so now i'm going to have a "she's a regular person, just like everyone else" mantra going on in my head every time i see her. i know it's not her fault that she has the big C but i'll probably be a little more distant with her than i normally would be towards a teacher. I've had two explosive fights with my sister in the past 24 hours and there doesn't seem to be any chance of our relationship getting better soon. which makes me sad. i've also decided to join the Relay for Life in late May which does cancer support and such. It'll be good for me. emotionally, and, maybe it'll help with fitting into a dress that could have some small and fleeting hope of flattering me. well. i've gotta scram
c ya whee
ema
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