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My life in a nut shell:
well I'm gonna start writing this about my past and childhood. Kinda sad but that's life. Some of stuff I won't mention since i have reason to repress them

When I was born I was normal. Having normal live till when i was 5 years old i recieve a scar on a left or maybe it was my right eye lid. I was cut with some flying metal object and almost bleed to death. I never knew my father even till now . My mom had boy friends though out my life. some i like , some i don't like. One alway abused my mom and yell at her. He was short temper and i feared him. I always hated him with all my gut and still do. He not with my mom another more (thank God )

During my whole life so far. I was a gentleman . I was rise a gentleman and alway will be on. i was alway nice to everybody sadly I was really really shy so i couldn't go up and talk to people . Beside people would make fun of me. Through 1st -5th grade. I was tortured by cruel words that only make me sad. I couldn't cry on the outside but on the inside i was. Still i refused to lower myself to their standard and comment back so cruelly. i alway had suicidal thoughts , I thought my life was pointless....just a void an empty void . Still today I cry sometimes because of the past haunting me . I tend not to cry and hold it back since well guy are not suppose to cry..or that was what I was told . Yet i still do. I'm so weak...I know martial arts and all but I'm weak....

Girl made fun of me. when I was a 4th grader . I thought all of them was sick and twisted. I was consider a virus to my class at those times. I wonder to myself ..is there no such thing as mercy?I only dreamed of death .

6th- right now i have friends . i'm still a gentleman but i gone a little insane. These dark feeling insdie of me are beginning to leak out . I gone insane. my mom is shouting at me since I'm skinny. She also complain about my looking like a girl and looking like a 25 years old. These thing depress me so . Yet i still manage to keep my stress inside of me. Slowly eating away at my heart.

ok that pretty much it.....my past...you know i feel better now I got this out. My life does have change...I think I will have a better future