stuffed animals
okay, this all started 2 weeks ago friday when i was really bored before i went to bed...and i had just stopped talking with Striker or Zero (which one i can't remember at the moment)
okay so like I was being a retard (when am I not? ......don't answer that) and i started pulling stuffed animals from off my dresser (i have too many) and i'm like "I SHOULD FIGURE OUT WHICH STUFFED ANIMAL REMINDS ME OF WHICH FRIEND!!!" xd
yeah, so i'll say if they're at my mom's house or dad's house. but if there isn't a lable it's at my dad's.
so here's the list and some randomness to go with it.
Chocolate lab (dad's) and Polar Bear (mom's): They remind me of the one and only.......ZERO!!! cuz doggies r totally loyal (like he is!!) and my polar bear is my favorite stuffed animal cuz i've had it since i was 3
Little gray bear holding a D (dad's) and my Hamtaro plushie backpack (mom's): STRIKER!!! cuz they're always somewhere near my bed and it's nice to think Striker's watching over me cuz my guardian angel is an a*****e.
White bunny with a raincoat: Snowwi, cuz she's cute like a BUNNY IN A RAINCOAT!!! lol
White bunny with a pink ribbon: Rii, cuz ur awesome with the hyperness even tho we don't get along that well sometimes. (probably my fault...i yell at u too much...sowwy)
Brown bunny with musical note pins in it's ears (haha, i put those on there): B. cuz she's one of the bestest friends you could ever get and i love my brown bunny!!! and she plays the trumpet so she's musical!!
and last but not least.....
MY GIRL SCOUTS MONKEY: hahaha.........Denzi. not that i'm saying you should be a girl scout it's just that you're all hyper most of the time like a monkey. and i just happened to get the monkey for selling a lotta girl scout cookies, so sue me.
yeah, i happen to sleep with my chocolate lab and polar bear....but i like to think that Zero is close to me.
i actually cried last night kinda because of that.....
lemme explain...
Zero's in love. and I'm really happy for him, really I am. but he's always texting his love and RPing with him, and barely ever talks to me, even if he's on. so like i feel like we're drifting apart and it makes me really sad and i just feel crappy and emo these days....MY GOD I'VE STARTED CUTTING MY SELF BUT NOT VERY OFTEN AND I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO AND I'M NOT AS OPEN WITH STRIKER AS I AM WITH ZERO AND I JUST FEEL LIKE I WANNA CURL UP IN A BALL AND DIE SOMETIMES AND I DON'T EVEN THINK ZERO WOULD NOTICE IF I REALLY DID EVEN THOUGH HE'S MY BEST FRIEND!! -sob- it just SUCKS, you know...? and Lucas and I aren't together anymore and i'm kinda sad about that, but Striker and Zero always tell me that no boy can last forever but friends will be with me till the end, but i just feel that it's not that way with Zero right now....
wow....this turned into a depressing entry pretty fast....god i just feel like s**t right now....s**t on the bottom of God's shoes and he's just wiping me off in the grass and moving on with other people more important than me....ugh... gonk emo
-Later-
Uhm...we have 12 days till Valentine's day.....so....
-Much Later-
okay....i was watching the newest Torchwood that we have on our tivo with my dad....(yup, BBC America people).....ugh i just randomly thought of Captain Jack as Zero....then the evil John Heart as Nathan (that was in the begining when he didn't seem so evil) and me as Gwen for some reason.....
those who don't watch Torchwood (meaning you don't watch BBC America) here's some pics for you
Captain Jack -->
<-- GwenHere's a better pic:
(from left: Yanto, Gwen, Jack, Toshiko, Owen)
<-- John Heartit was a very random moment
BUT SERIOUSLY GWEN IS LIKE AN OLDER, BRITISH ME!!!
hehehehe...just for fun
FOR SHAME GWENY!!! OWEN IS MINE!! YOU HAVE A BF!!!
oh...did i mention that Jack is bi...?
GO ON!! YOU KNOW YOU WANNA SNOG 'IM!!!! YOU KNOW YOU WANNA!!!
-much...much....later....-
GUESS WHAT I ENTERED INTO THE GALLERY*!!!
THIS!!
ISN'T IT BEAUTIFUL!?!?!?!?!?
GIVE ME LUCK!!!!
I HOPE IT GETS IN!!!
*the gallery is our school litterary and art 'magazine', we have one every year
