well, the time is drawng closer, to the day when i hang it up on gaia, it has become pointless after about a year on here. I have had time to talk to alot of you, relax in some places, and hate the others. I have had the time to get to know who you are exactly, i've made about 120 journal entries, been in about 6-7 relationships on here, and surpisingly i'm still single. From August 16th 04 to now i've been a member, and it's funny ya know, how i went from the old days of Kohaku and Suki to the phoenix Dragon guild and no one. i remember when i started with the black hair and the black getaGrip outfit and shiro had the Hipster outfit when he was Shiro-sama. Then i met up with Serria and she let me stay and work at the Kohaku, now after the times have passed i realized she was a b***h in disquise. Next up i went fromthere to jubo's place and Devon. She was a great girl, but when she left i kinda figured she was tired of me so i gave up on it. At this time i met up with Dc, Kanari, And alucard, after some of this and some of that, me and D.C were together, though i had realized that i liked another giri that was in the Desert rp that Shiro made, but i couldn't have them both now could I, besides i think she had a boyfriend but anyway those were some great times i'll have to say, but something happened and then it all blew up heh funny how s**t happens huh. Next up was Yazzy yazz, now that was a one night stand...literally, after one day she flipped out and started talking some ingorant s**t to me, so i cut the chain to that one, oh well. From there i went to Jubo's new place and Mesai. Oh jeez, man it probably would have worked, but noooo alot of bullshit had hit the fan all at once. So then that was a definite no. But something happened, we went and tried to make it work again, and what do you know folks, it was a nope, then another dumb move, we tried to make it work for the third time. And i'm sure you know how that worked out. So anyways, from there i went to the guild me and Jubo started and Tarneska. All i can say about her is that she's a sweet girl, pretty much the opposite of me, and i didn't really love her....come to think of it, did i really love any of them.....hmm who knows, who even knows what love means anymore right. I've made dozens of rps and met friends, but like i said for every friend i make i make two enemies, like Xelin's punk a** or imetokato who pretty much added to the kohaku s**t. I've had fun here, bought up a assload of s**t, told the truth, lied, had fun and kicked back. now when i look at it, i have my brothers, my nieces, and four real friends. I've told Jokes, made people cry and cheered people up. I've helped with problems, solved issues, and listened when needed. you may think "that's the perfect friend" but you're wrong, none of you knows the real me, except for a few of you, i've caused problems that people weren't aware that i did, made a few grimey deals to do stuff, hell though i wasn't supposed to say anything i even made a deal with my brother Shiro to cause something, though i haven't done it, i'm still thinking about it. i've help people cheat, hell i've cheated on people, and i watched them cheat first. I've always tried to offer my advise though it might not help and maybe it did. I've stopped a few suicides and i think nothing of it. i've told some s**t about people out of anger and i was close to doing it again. i've made other accounts just to fool other people and they never knew it was me. Do i care, not a chance, i really don't. now, it's just the bar, the guilds and a few friends. i barely talk to anyone on my friendslist, but hell i'm sure they don't care, all together i've had up to abut 112 people on my list, it's down to about 20. It's been a blast Gaia, but sadly it's just over to me, i'm sure it'll grow to be a bigger site, but as of now to me it's lost it's meaning. now i'm drinking, lookin at this screen, wonderin what was the purpose in the begining......
Virje Blackcross Community Member 
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