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Today sucked....I missed my counseling appointment because of my dad...and I can't go until thursday...Oh god I wish I could have went today....
I found out that the one who said they "loved" me had asked one of our friends out behind my back...God this is so crazy, what made him think I wouldn't find out....And now he says I don't understand...And if I ever loved him, that I would understand, and forgive him....Well I did love him....A hell of a lot....but it was so ******** stupid of me....
I use to think I didnt have a heart....But now I know I do, because its hurting like a mother ******** hurts so bad...I wish I never would have met that jerk...God...Im so stupid....
Theres no such thing as love...Im 100% sure about that.."Love" is only a temporay feeling that brings more temporary feelings...It dosn't stay the same, its not some strong brick wall that can never be broken...Theres no such thing as love... Love is just pains messenger...Pain is real..Very real...I've always had pain....Where there was never love, theres always been pain...
I don't understand how I could let this happen...Im so stupid...It's all my fault...I never should have fallen into another trap called love.....
 hopeless punkhead · Wed Jul 13, 2005 @ 03:56am · 1 Comments |
