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I feel like everything is getting worse b the second. I feel like everything is tearing me apart by my arms and legs. i can't seem to get passed my bottled up emotion. This is why I kept it to myself. I did it because i knew you wouldn't want to talk to me anymore. Or you'd silently hear me talking to how much you piss me off. Ash is tired of it. AndSo am I. i stood up for a guy who loves you and I don;t even know him. I guess it's because I'm tired of you playing around with people's heads. What is going on. I actually started writng dear P.O.P. I havem
t done that in a while. Thanks it doesn't help at all. It actual makes me realize How stupid I am. I hope that makes you feel accomplished. I really do. It's so much easier to see you feel accomplished then it does for me to feel stupid. Yeah, it's all just stupid. I hate this. I hate every moment of how it feels to feel un wanted. And to feel like everyones mistake. Or to feel ike someone perfect toke your place. Why am I even making a big deal out of you. Your not worth it. i know that. How can someone claim to be your best friend if the make you feel like s**t. explain it oo me. Because that' show i feel . Maybe if I get you out of my life then this depression will slowly just fade away.