stare i need sleep.....my friend called me today...she misses me. and i must say i miss her too.
i need contact...human contact other than my familly.
those things in my head...i can hear them screaming at the back of my head. telling me to finish them...to do them propally.
my friend said i need to get out more.
how can i get out more when humanity is so excruciatingly stupid?
she says i need to 'respect people more'
honestly!
how can one possibly respect the existance of them when they seems to defy respect!? they do such trivial thing!
and find amusment in it!
there 'maturity'...HA...they find amusment in turturing their own kind.
...this doensnt apply to all people ofcourse.
and so she say " but your a person. why dont you hate yourslef?'
....at this point i hung up on her....then tryed drawing again....dont start to lecture me about selfloathing..i know that all too well...*sigh*
..now i have unplugged the phone and turned off my mobile...i just need to be alone ...to work this out..maybe that will help...
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