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What am I doing? Why am I doing this? I guess it's just like I told Allie. I'm a b***h and I'm looking for some excitement for once in my life. You say I'm emotionless? Well there has not been a single day within the past month that I have not cried my eyes out and that is the complete and honest truth. Of course I feel like s**t, today I was the one who felt sick because of this. Basically, it's because I feel like when you look at me, you don't see ME. And you don't mean it when you say it to me. When you talk to me, it feels like there's no true feeling behind what you say. I've felt uncomfortable around you for the past two weeks. I just think that the feelings are kind of gone, and that's why I need a break. To get a hold myself and my feelings.