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My life feels as if it has come to an end.
My heart feels empty and mind seems so blank.
Every emotion within me is fighting to survive in thdless turmoil and pain.
Nothing can fix it.
nothing can mend it.
All that occurs is an endless painfull ache that stabs at my heart.
Why, you ask, well i'll tell you............................................................
Tonight..........................about 30 minutes ago a woman nocked on our door.
she asked if we owned a siamese/himalayan cat, because if we did, she thinks she might have just hit it.
of course how does one respond to such a question?!?!?!
i rushed outside, and there was my cat.................Luna......................Dead!
my mom brought her inside to see if she was still alive and five minutes she told me we had lost her.
my heart exploded
my life destroyed at the loss of another precious pet.
my baby kitty
my joy my comfort
I am so lost
I wish i could be found
I keep on loosing things that mean so much to me
and to many they would wonder and say "it's just a cat! why cry over that, just get a new one."
It could never be that simple.
my pets are my friends they are a part of my family and without them i feel so alone and weak.
i love my animals as family and as friends and i treat them like kings and queens.
why? you ask, well it is because i love to care for something and love it and in return recieve a similar love.
I love all of my pets.
and i still have pets, but it still hurts to loose Luna, because she came from the same family as the first cat i ever got when i moved here.
Mushu was my present at the age of seven and when we moved she came too, along with my moms cat Kobe.
Kobe liked the outdoors, and Mushu was very beautiful and looked like a kitten.
She also loved the outdoors, but somebody stole her, and she didn't come back one night.............................she always came inside every night.
of course a year later kobe was found on easter morning under our neighbors bush dead........................................supossedly attacked by a raccoon.
They had had a kitten named Artemis, and a year later we got Mushu as well.
Earlier this year we found Artemis out on the porch dead.................we didn't know why............................he was only six years old.
and sadly, Luna just died...........................hit by a car.
We never did anything to cause our cats deaths......................................and they all died very young.......................................................
I shall never allow my cats outside again.............................because i don't want to loose them.
I miss Luna so much!
And the sad thing is that no one shall understand, because tomorrow at work i must pretend that nothing sad has happened, and then come home at 7:30 and cry some more and spend the rest of my weekend and next week crying over my precious friend and family that i just lost.
I wish that no one had to feel the pain of loosing anything, be it family, friend, pet, life.................................it's just not a wonderful thing and the pain can kill you.
I wish that i had never opened the door and heard that my cat had died..........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
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 lov2catnap · Sat Jan 12, 2008 @ 02:45am · 5 Comments |
