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Hurr

So Rand lives with us now.

xD It's okay, it's nice hanging out with him. He forced me to stay up till 3 last night to watch Transformers.

I gotta say, it was pretty rad. XB

It made me have funkadelic dreams though. eek

I'm feeling so emo today. ;.; And self-destructive. I lopped off some of my hair but stopped just in time not to do do much damage. I went back and fixed it so it looks okay now. I just have bangs again. sweatdrop My face is hideous and blotchy and exhausted looking. And my acne is ******** terrible. It literally hurts. I want to get back on birth control so so so bad but it's too expensive. ;_; I dunno, I'll see what I can do at the Bedford clinic.

Need job uhg. I applied at Petsmart. I hope they call. I want to wash animals. :b

Tired.

I'm really having a bad Time Of The Month. You know? ;-;

I feel so chubby ;.;

I want to get on the treadmill but I feel so lazy and miserable

I just want my skin to heal and be pretty and not so ultra-pink with rosasia anymore.

WHY AM I SO UGLY HURRRRRR.

God hates me. emo

No I shouldn't say that =[

It's not Her fault I'm choosing to be so sad

I'm not really sad about things in general, just about myself. I've really dissapointed myself.

Otherwise I feel good. I'm getting better in terms of the ED. I've gained weight and while it makes me paranoid and sometimes I feel gross and heavy ..

I know it's best for me and that I should be healthy.

For the sake of the future.

Our future at least. dramallama

I'm testing out the herbal properties of this aloe vera plant I have. I've heard it can help cure wounds. So I cut a leaf and put some of the stick green insides on my face. Pretty gross right? So far nothing has happened but then again it's supposed to take a while to heal.

I wish I had nice skin uhg.