Woah... I opened up my Dr. Pepper and all of a sudden, I'm craving Burger King. *Sob* Anyway. Pat and I spent our New Years together. :] We were each other's new-year kiss. :] We had sparkling cider and everything. Lol. It was so amazingly adorable. I love himmmm. <3 My mum got him two pairs of boxers for Christmas. One pair is silky and they're black with lil' red hearts all over them, and the other pair is of the yellow peanut M&M and a green girl M&M, and the butt of the boxers says, "I'm Nutty Over You". Lol. It's so funny. He tried on the silk boxers and then modeled them for my mum and I. He's so cute. So he spent the night two nights in a row, and yeah. The first night we were both wearing pants and shirts, but the second night, we were wearing shirts [obviously], and boxers. Lol. He had his silky ones on, and I had my Homer Simpson boxers on. We were laying on my bed, snuggled up against each other, and he was like, "You know, we're like a married couple. Laying in bed, cuddling, in our boxers..." I'm so excited for when him and I actually do get married. :] We laid in bed for a while before we fell asleep, just talking. I can't tell you what about, because I don't remember. But I know it was something about our future. He even said we can get an English Bulldog for me when we move in together because I've wanted one for a while, and he's going to get a Rotwiler [spelled wrong]. He's just an amazing man and every other guy I've been with has never been so sweet to me. They've either used me to get a girl jealous, used me for sex, or other such things. One time, I told a guy a deep dark secret about me, and he was like, "Oh. You're not [insert what I told him here], huh? I was hoping you were one, but whatever. I guess I'll still date you." So that pissed me off. :/ I hate guys like that. Pat totally understood when I told him that secret. He let me cry on his shoulder. He held me so close, whispering, "It'll be okay. I'm so sorry that had to happen to you. I promise it'll never happen again." He always holds me closely yet gently whenever I get into a crying fit. Like, we were watching the deleted scenes in Happy Feet, and apparently Steve Irwin was another character before he was the Elephant Seal. So we watched that, and just hearing his voice made me choke up and I started sobbing, and Pat was like, "What's wrong, babe?" and I looked at him, tears streaming down my face, saying, "I miss him. He was like my father, though I never got to meet him. Why do the good die so young?" Then he understood and just held me. I'm starting to tear up right now because I miss Steve Irwin so much. That man was like my father. I knew more about him than my real father, and even though I never got to talk to Steve Irwin face-to-face, I still felt like I could count on him for anything. It's weird, I know, but I dunno. I alsoo always had this dream of meeting him and him and I clicking like family. But that's not going to happen now. I have Pat, and he's the best thing to ever happen to me. I'm just scared and excited all at once for what he has planned for our one year. D': He told me he really wants to do what he has planned, but he has to ask my mum first, and then make sure he'll have enough money. It has something to do with my "104.7 The Edge" radio poster... and he said you can make the word with the whole poster. So I'm confused. But that's okay. I'll just wait eight months and 20/21 days until our one year, then when I find out, I'll come on Gaia and tell you all. I'm going to wrap this up. I'm getting sad because I miss Pat and Steve Irwin. Dearly. <//3
CaRto0nz · Wed Jan 02, 2008 @ 09:15am · 0 Comments
