Alrighty. Seeing as how no one really cares about what I post on here...well...no one seems to pay attention to it. I shall have a random rant...angst thingy..
*sigh* To anyone out there, are little sisters really that bad? I'm a little sister myself and well..I wouldn't say I'm annoying or anything. I'm actually rather nice. And I'd like to think I'm entertaining...but not annoying. For some odd my older sister has this deep, burning hate for me. Currently, I'm on her laptop, which I have asked on numerous accounts to use. Every time she has told me no in a sneer or random excuse. This sets me off.
I don't know if any of you have noticed, but I'm actually rather mellow. Yes I often act like a retard or whatever. But that's only because I don't really want to expose people to the real me. Not many have actually heard or seen me cry. There are reasons for this.
About a year ago I was deeply into self mutilation. Actually tried and almost succeded in killing myself a couple times. It didn't seem to matter much though. 'Cause in my oppinion...no one cared...or noticed. I laugh at that thought now. I didn't notice before but I had...HAVE two great friends who stuck by me and managed to pull me out of my depression.
Looking back on it I see how stupid I was...It's quite funny actually. And It actually sort of all starts with my sister. The oblivuos Drama Queen... *sigh*
She's what most people would call..."Perfect" Or whatever... -_-' Pretty sure a couple of you out there know what it's like... Well..yeah..Let me actually post something up here.
A little thing I wrote for english last year... in the next post, it's rather long...
 Yanachii · Wed Jun 29, 2005 @ 11:08am · 1 Comments |
