Well its 5 am and once again I havn't slept yet. Saturday night I slept at my Mom-moms then sunday I was at my dads. But tonight I was in my house at night for the first time since Lady's passing. I suppose it doesn't make much sense without saying that we were always together at night. Whenever I went to the kitchen to grab a drink the old girl would follow me. If I was in the computer room she would come in the room and so on. But now there's just an emptiness all around. I keep thinking about how I held her as she slowly drifted off in an endless sleep. I watched her and held her through it all, stomaching my pain to comfort hers. I reply the images and if it werent for the bitter reality I would think it a dream. Some may think this is foolish but Lady was apart of my family for 14 years. She was the one friend who stuck by me and comforted me best she could. All i can do is let the tears fall and learn how to live without all of me.
(I feel my unactiveness shall be continued through this week. I just can't seem to find the motivation for Gaia or anything right now.)
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