Sometimes I'll look at myself in the mirror, and I'll feel like somethings wrong. Sometimes I feel like I' turning into my own enemy, and the people around me can feel that too. They also hate it but so do I. It's not a walk in the park to look at yourself and say "who the hell are you? What happened to the real me?". It breaks me down inside. The sad thing is that the people around me might not know the advantage they have. They can walk away from me or I can walk away from them,..... but I can't walk away from myself. If it was possible on those cold days where I feel so aloof I would just seperate the part of me that is still on earth and leave the little b***h behind. Nothing about me has changed physically in the past years. The biggest differences that is also hidden is emotional. It's just a crazy rollercoaster.... hince and I'm on that ride but I'm blind, deaf, and numb. I don't know if I'm up, down, all around, or just so confused that I let it out in a retarded unfunny way. I try to make myself seem not so much like an annoyance I was last year. But I don't think it worked. God help me from becoming the little monster I may have been. I don't know what to do with myself. But I know that all I have left is to make the mistakes, hurt some feelings (and then repair them), and just move on with my life.
Confused down 'till it hurts,
Guffin the Holy Muffin
