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Well yesterday turned out to be a really bad day for me. Except for being able to get a hold of my silver gown for the Star Ball, everything started going to pot. I was so depressed all day because it felt like there was always something wrong with me or that I wasn't good enough. *sigh* I just started looking back at my life and seeing how almost everyone ends up leaving me for one reason or another. I don't know. I guess it's just starting to get to me. I just completely broke down and on my bed and cried for hours. I knew I had to work in the morning but I still couldn't get to sleep till about 2 am, and even then I still kept on waking up every hour and a half. I was finally able to drag myself out of bed and I could literally feel the exhaustion from crying all night weighing me down. I would have called in sick but that wouldn't have accomplished anything. So here I am, on lunch break, waiting for the work day to be over and then it's off to the doctor...again. Same for tomorrow as well. Really the only solice that did any good was with Rya and Nekoro. Thanks guys, wuvz j00. I'm sorry for being a pain and breaking down like that. Anyway, I'll only be able to access the net from work now on break since people are moving out. *Sigh* I really need to get my puter fixed soon. Anyway, that's my rant for the day...I guess I'll go now. *Collapse*