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As I stare into the abyss
I let myself float away
Float far, far down to darkness
I've been here for years, why hasn't anyone found me?

I fly away into the clouds every day
Day dreaming; full of hopes and wants of you
Crying from the heavens
No one seems to notice

Time buries those memories
They are buried deep below into Earth's breast
She takes them, but soon lets them go
Just broken memories, broken thoughts, broken hopes

Warmth has lost all feeling
I now seem to only accept darkness
I don't want that any longer
If darkness keeps knocking at my door, I'll truly lose myself...

You have shown me such a new side of life
Happiness, joy
You always smile; you fill my face with warmth
It's uncontrolable, everything I thought was lost seems to be coming back

But why can't I let it in?
Darkness holds my soul
I can no longer cut it away
I have to let it go; bury it deep below

I want to be happy with you
I want to be able to feel the warmth that you give me
I want so many things, but how can they all come true?
Should I just tell you my heart out?

But I've been hurt before, I don't want it to happen again
My heart hasn't been mended, for the past three years it's still here in pieces
Won't you repair it for me?
Or will you stomp on them?

I sit here now as I listen to words of Wind
I know now I have a chance; I can give in to the powers of light
Light will accept me, Light loves everyone
If only everyone else could accept this new change...

If only people wouldn't judge...
Life along with others will always view me as dark
Over years of pain and hurt, why wouldn't they?
Voids this empty are best left alone, but now here I am fighting it

Everything has kept going down
You are the only thing that is holding me on
Opening my heart to light each and everyday
Underneath my rough exterior, hopefully you will find the real me

And hopefully I can throw away my mask and become myself again finally being able to smile once more...