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Alone on the front,
standing on the bodys of those who fell,
waiting for those who still fight.
i have made my choices,
on what once confused me.
but now i know,
so i shall not stop myself
no more doupt,
no more secound guesses
this is my fight
and it always will be
as my brothers step down one by one
i alone shall stand, till fighting turely stops.

alone among shadows,
the frist and last,
born with knowlage of chaos.
i fight the dark ones,
and twist those once so pure.
with Loki chattering in my ear,
and Aries laughing behind my back.
the blood still stains my hands,
but that is long since forgot,
as i spill more and allow it to wash over me,
and reveil in the joy that absolute horror brings.

i know the horrors of this world,
but do i fear them?
i can not say for sure,
for its my fear that makes me face them,
and it is maddness that makes me laugh.
so when most would scream,
i laugh and the horrors flee,
and the darkness hides.

why should i fear the darkness,
when it seems to fear me?
ive asked my elders,
those who call them selves my betters,
but they give me no ture answer.
maybe it is there to be feared?
ive asked myself too many times to count.
maybe we should fear it, because it fears us?
ive pondered this on many sleepless nights.
but if this is so, let the watch fires burn bright,
so i may see past the darkness, to what lurks behind.
and learn why it fears us.

But that is the path that ive watched so many walk,
only to fall to its waiting jaws,
and i watched those who fell as they suffer.
but in the end falling to darkness,
can be no worse than touching the face chaos.
for the darkness will over take the mind with fear and the horrors we have made,
while chaos over takes you with pure twisted turth.

corruption, tainted, evil
the things the elders say i already am,
for doing what they could never,
i am branded,damned.
forced to loneyness.
outcasted by the others like my self,
because of the mark those who once-where,
have placed upon me.
i am damn to the abyss,
where i once made a home,
and the fools think this a punishment.
all they do is give the darknes the chance it wants,
to over throw tht order i have re-built with in my mind.
but if it does the fall to chaos,
shall be seemingly endless,
as the blood of many speeds my decent to Hel.