*screams and falls to my knees holding my head* scream stressed gonk evil emo
I HATE EVERYTHING!!! I JUST ******** HATE THE WAY PEOPLE ARE!!
Reasons for this out burst:
School- my teachers push me to do better and i dont want too, students who arnt my friends are always trying to get a jab at you and make fun so they look cool.
I shaved my freaking head cause i have a compulsive disorder to pull my hair and i want to stop. So i shaved my freaking head. So the students at school are ripping on me cause they compare my short hair to that of a cancer paitents hair.
In guitar class i cant keep up like i want to.
Math class i get bored so easily
La I know all of what their teaching so im bored
Biology im bored and have nothing to do
Geo/History we have 3 classes all combined. Us history one side of the room CWP (current world problems) and then mine World Geo and History. The teacher due to having 3 classes all combined merely hands out a thing to fill out on mondays and tells us what we have to do then goes back to her desk and sits. She gets an annoyed look if you go up for help and she never hands stuff back to us she leaves it in a freaking return box for the whole class to pick threw so all she really does is baby sit, grade papers and give out grades.
PE i want to be a marine and ive set high standards for my self but im the slowest kid in my class for running track..and the teacher never smiles
My brother from Ausi
He went to England for 3 weeks and thats it! His 'friend' Andrei used his account to ******** a lot of things up! Andrei is a liar and selfish to all hell. He has wanted to destroy my brothers way of life ever since he met him....and i dont know why....
My dad
My father has been living with me, mom and my brother for about a few months now. He never really talked to me or cory while he was at home cause he was normaly asleep since he worked a night shift at Wal Mart. That was understandable but on his off days all he would do is sleep and never really make an attempt to play with us other then our not so often moments of teasing each other in the mornings of the weekends if he was up.
He's recently found a girl friend or what ever and is staying with her for the past few days. I have this feeling that he will once again forget about me and my brother like all the past times he's had a girl in his life.
I want him to be like a father but...i also dont want to hold him back seeing as how he's never really been around for us when we were younger and he isnt all that paitent when learning about teenagers. Its his way or no way and we all butted heads against him till he sorta gave up...
My brothers Andrew and Jason
Andrew went into surgery for his knee this Tues day and i dont have his phone number so i cant talk to him till oh say...next week around friday...or something if he even gets on Myspace.....><
My brother Jason went off to Iraq for his second term of service and i havent been able to talk to him for a long time...
but i pray to what ever god or force of power to keep my brothers and family safe...
And im still depressed even after writting all of this down...*sighs* What i go threw sometimes...
I live in diffrent worlds...so many rules for each world and diffrent personalitys take over...
School- normaly calm and quite with out much to say
With my friends- Loud and random with lots of stupid moments
Home- quiet and glued to the comp
With my mom- caring and a bit more talkative then normal if something is bugging me
with my Bf- Honost and i can relax rather a lot with him
And then there is this mood....depressed and not wanting to do anything other then just live threw another day so i can do it all over again...
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