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dude, this time of the school year sucks. especially when you have to find a date for homecoming, prom, or whatever. in my case, i was trying to get a date for homecoming. i liked this guy A LOT (still do, very much so.) and i thought, eh it'll be a piece of cake. then when the moment came to ask him on wednesday, i freaked and couldn't get myself to do it. and i just felt really embarrassed and dumb, but thanks to my friends i was able to ask him on thursday. i was like "hey!" and he was like "hey." and i was like "so, what's up?" and he was like "eh, nothing much." and i was like "well, would you want to go to homecoming w/ me?" and he was like "oh, um i already have a date. i'm srry." you know he was all sweet about it. and that didn't bother me much at the moment i was like "oh, ok." and as i was walking to my class i just felt gradually worse. it was like i blamed myself for being stupid and not asking in time. it's him i think about before i go to bed at night. it's him i look for in the places he'd never be at. i want to be able to fall in his arms and tell him i care about him. but now i'd never have that chance to do that.