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have u ever been just so emtpy before?

not as in food

not as in company

not as in accersories



but as in a time in ur life u just dont know anymore...or at least i hope for now

dont worry for me its nothin serious.i propbably making it sound worse then it is but i mean i just stated high skool,yes im a freshman and well...i been thinking alot about my future...and well it turns out i really dont know wat i want to be when i grow up.i cant work in the FBI becuz i am going to live in japan so i was thing about CEO which if im right i thinks its like the FBI of japan dont bite off my head if im not right though but theres other things im thinking over like i really want to do sumthin with art dispite wat my dad has tolled me.so i was thing more like londrea((bra and panties))designer but then i was thinking of nursing i mean it makes well pay and no matter where i live ill always have a job i mean go to any country theyll always have a hospital where they need nurses and if i do,do that im covered and i would only have to work three days a week and ill have food,bills and rent payed off.so ill have the rest of the week to myself but then again my art its still and always be a part of me and i want it so badly but also ive havent been drawing as much anymore i cant even draw that well anymore i really suck at it now so i actually think im not qualified to be a designer period.i dont know wat it is and its not just all that stuff but its also at home and in skool me and my dad fighting more then usually and i hate to use the word fight so let me think of sumthing different umm....DISAGREEING thats it we have been doing disagreeing alot and then new skool new teachers new friend and new enemies not to mention the old.ON TOP OF IT ALL me and my best friend lindsey are fighting alot she so bitchy and moody already at the age of 14 she a semi depresent but its not even that i cant quite put my finger on wat it is theres sumthing else but i kinda just dont know wat it is yet...