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I haven't written since the beginning of the month. *Whew* A lot has been happening...which to start with...life or work? Work...
At work, I come in...do my job, handle department issues and people issues and just mainly try to keep the peace. I am a sales associate, some days I am awesome at my job, others days are just blargh. And now that I am cross-training, there is a lot that I have to keep in my head. I feel like I am being tested to my limits and there are people waiting for me to fail. I want to leave this job so bad sometimes because of all the management's bullshit, but I can't because I really make the most in my household and I need the benefits. On top of it all, my old position was recreated and management is forcing me and another girl to compete against each other to get the job. I was the senior wireless customer sales specialist...a fancy way of saying a wireless sales associate, meaning that I did all the stuff I do now...but I had a little more respect. The other girl used to be a supervisor. She got sick and left for a while, then came back. They are trying to make her quit, but can't and they had to keep her at her same pay. I know they want her to have the job so they can justify paying her so much. It is shitty.
In my personal life, we are still behind in bills. Though not as bad as it was...it makes things easier now that my hubby gets paid the opposite week of me. The kids are still growing and driving me nuts, Mika is even saying so much more. Next month, I am driving my mom down to visit my grandmother. They haven't seen each other in 15 years and it makes me sad and angry at the same time. My dad's family is only an hour away and they never come to visit and hardly ever call. We only get together at major family events, even though I try to be close to them...things changed a lot. Especially when my cousin killed himself or was killed by the cops...we still don't know all the details and the police never released the report. But my mom's family is in Arkansas and it is so much harder to see them. They call and they right and they miss us so much. I am a country girl at heart. Throw me in the south and I am as happy as a clam...then why am I so hesitant about moving to Florida?
I feel way deep down that it is not where we belong. My hubby wants to move there because his best friends and brother live down there. And it is not Delaware. I don't want to stay in Delaware either, but Florida? Just like Delaware, Florida is slowly becoming a stagnant pond. North Carolina is where I want to be...it calls to me and wants me to come home. I don't know why...but NC is where my hearts resides.
*Sigh* Enough ramblings. I have met a lot of new people on Gaia, I am definately trying to branch out. I really want to start a writer's guild, and branch out. I have enough gold, but I part of me wants to hoard it all. The reliquiants and fluffy cats are keeping me busy and I hate being negligent when it comes to stuff of that nature. When i have an Rp pet, i want to be as involved as possible. But, I am moving up in the ranks as I continue to try and post as much as possible at the Polls Library. There are a lot of cool people there. I think I am going to quit the parents guild...it is too established and I really don't post there. Okay...enough for now!
 Naree · Tue May 24, 2005 @ 05:21am · 7 Comments |
