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so, I really wish I hadn't over-reacted so much on monday, because since then, its just been domokun >< domokun to each other. we constantly nag at each other, insult each other, never touch physically and he's only said "I love you" 3 or 4 times this week. and 2 of those were b/c i asked him why he wasn't saying it as much as usual. so, (and I feel really bad for even THINKING this) but it feels like he's cheating on me. or did at some point. i know i'm being insanly paranoid, but I just can't help it! i wish i didn't even consider this, but I am. then, today he opened, then got a 2 hour break and he had told me he would call me and when he didn't, I called his house and he was like "yeah, i'm gonna go back to sleep b/c i have to meet *blurble* at food lion at 3." and I was like "who?" and he was like "Blurbleblurble" so i was like ok, and he was like, good night *click* and i was just kinda like, 'OK, wtf? a year ago, you would have jumped at the idea of a long enought break to see me, and now you're just blah? something is wrong, other than just being tired and having "senior worries" I have a meeting at his store at noon with him, bob and klinton, so i'm gonna try and go early so i can talk to him. b/c, he always asks me to tell him whats wrong, and now its his turn. honestly, if it turns out he DID cheat on me, i'll ... well, I don't know what I'll do. and I don't want to know. ever. 1 or 2 was enough. I couldn't take Kenny doing that.... cry
 CajunFaery · Sun May 22, 2005 @ 04:48am · 0 Comments |
