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'If I were invisible
I could just watch you in your room
If I were unbreakable
I could just tell you where I stand
If I was invincable
I would make you mine tonight
If I were invisible
Wait--
I already am. ' sad

EDITED VERSION OF A SONG:
'I'm pulling petals off a flower till I get my way
I keep pulling till it says what I want it to say
Oh, I could pick a field full o' daisies
But he'd still be her baby
I know I can hardly wait till she's away from him
Instincively she knows what I'm thinking
I'm giving an open invitation
But her baby won't be taking it
No change to their love
So free to do what he wants
He's into what he's got(and that's her)
He loves her, he loves me not
No matter what I do
He's never gonna be with me
He's into what he's got(and that's her)
He loves her, he loves me not.

stressed gonk scream cry I'm so deppressed. Everyone's thinking it's just about Zak-- it's not. Lately it's been real hard for me to spill my guts-- but I'm gonna try to on here.

I HATE JUSTINE. Well... I don't HATE her... I just... I'm all jealous of her. She gets Zak. No fair. I saw him FIRST. He's known me LONGER.
But, than again, SHE'S got some advantages. She's probably prettier than me, smarter than me... And she's OLDER than Zak! How crazy is THAT? Zak says it's only by, like, a month but... I dunno.

CHELSEA gets all the guys. ALL OF THEM. It's getting on my nerves. I feel like slapping someone, strangling them, or cursing someone out...
The only thing different about Zak... he, like, almost hates Chelsea. That wasn't exactly spectacular news, but at least he doesn't love her, like, head over heels like a fool. stare

Why can't Katie TRUST ME???!!! crying I just... I dunno... She just won't talk to me about stuff. I can trust her. But NO-- she can't trust me. I bet she would have trouble placing her life in my hands. Anyday. Anytime. Like everyone. No one trusts me anymore. Except for Zak... he trusts me. I'm glad for that.

Austin hasn't talked to me ever since he left from visiting here. Is he mad at me? Did he forget me? I'm just so frustrated...

I'm so sorry for a friend of mine. sad He just lost his dad. He had a heart attack. I made him something, but it'll come later...

My coccyx hurts. Bad. gonk I think I fractured it. I still need to get it checked out. And I need to get my braces tightened. My wire for my braces keeps piercing into my cheek flesh and won't let go for, like, a minute. gonk It hurts so much. I have scars in my mouth.

I'm really worried... I've got so many old people in my family right now, and so many people who are just getting into the wrong crap. I'm so scared someone else is gonna die...

There are some other things, but I would rather not say. Over and out.

--Anime Sweetie

P.S. I spent the night at Katie's. Twas fun. 3nodding I got to see the third Star Wars movie. 3nodding