*sigh* I don't feel happy today sad .......regreted a lot of stuff last night.......
lying made my life miserable. Kuso, I just wanna go back in time and make my life happier....but life isn't fair cry . *daze* -w-we were a big happy family back then but after there was a fight between the adults in my family, thats when my life started getting sadder, mom, dad and I moved to an apartment then my mom devorsed w/ dad cuz she found out that he had another child (my half-sister) w/ another lady. My dad lived alone then he started to have kidney problems because of drinking too much of alcohol. He went to dialysis for months then many months after h-he died.....
I hated my dad for so much because of what he has chosen, but still now I miss him so much....then when I started growing up I didn't have that much friends because my mom moved homes too much. Then when my mom found "my-not-so-real-dad but wants me to call him dad" grr....never did trust him, hated him from the start. He and my mom decided we should move some were else more quiet. That "move" brought me to this place called home.....but still I'm missing so much in my life, I'm feeling so depressed these days when my mom told me about it, I feel so angry thinking about it I feel so hollow now with no feelings except for anger and saddness I have so much friends in my life now that I live in one place but I don't feel right....
lying made my life miserable. Kuso, I just wanna go back in time and make my life happier....but life isn't fair cry . *daze* -w-we were a big happy family back then but after there was a fight between the adults in my family, thats when my life started getting sadder, mom, dad and I moved to an apartment then my mom devorsed w/ dad cuz she found out that he had another child (my half-sister) w/ another lady. My dad lived alone then he started to have kidney problems because of drinking too much of alcohol. He went to dialysis for months then many months after h-he died.....
I hated my dad for so much because of what he has chosen, but still now I miss him so much....then when I started growing up I didn't have that much friends because my mom moved homes too much. Then when my mom found "my-not-so-real-dad but wants me to call him dad" grr....never did trust him, hated him from the start. He and my mom decided we should move some were else more quiet. That "move" brought me to this place called home.....but still I'm missing so much in my life, I'm feeling so depressed these days when my mom told me about it, I feel so angry thinking about it I feel so hollow now with no feelings except for anger and saddness I have so much friends in my life now that I live in one place but I don't feel right....
