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I don't know how to start this...
God, I hope she doesn't hate me. She ran off mad. I hope she knows she means the world to me and it pains me to know she is hurting not only physically but emotionally and there's not a god damn thing I can do about it. I'm 10 hours away, I can't sneak out of my room and tramp across the woods and steal her away or else I would. I wish I could give her the world. I think deep down she knows that I would. Hell maybe things would have been different if we knew now what we didn't know then. I'm sure we'd still be together, living happily, yes? But that's life for you. You choose not to do something and look at all the consequences unfold. Strange isn't it, that this all could of been avoided if we were bother stronger, to stand up and say, "I am going with my girlfriend to prom and there's nothing anyone can do about it." Yeah, I'm sure both of our parents would've loved that, but maybe we'd both be happier people for it. But I really do love you my Jessie, and I know we are miles away, but that doesn't stop me from loving you. Nothing has nothing will. I still cry for you, you still own my soul and noone will ever understand and love me like you do. I wish a better life for you I really do. I wish things didn't have to be the way they are with him and I know this isn't the first time this has happened, but unfortunately this is the first time that I'm not there to make it better., but you know if there is a way I would."
'When things are changing all around us and the world seems to move too fast, don't forget I'll be right beside you, loving you. What I feel for you is deep, total, and enduring-a love you can count on without ever having to wonder. So when you look ahead to future changes or think about how the past use to be, don't forget to look beside you, because that's where you'll find me, loving you with all my heart. That's the one thing you can count on that will never, ever change."
 Zoey Mikaela · Sat Aug 18, 2007 @ 08:50am · 0 Comments |
