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I've recently rewritten my personal reflection of myself for my profile. I feel complelled to share it in a journal entry, as I feel it's an important moment in my life.



My life has recently gone through an abrupt and drastic change. Whether it be for the good, or bad is still to be seen. Therefor, a rewrite of my personal reflection of myself is in order. First and foremost I'll introduce myself, excuse me if my smile doesn't appear as quickly and easy as in the past. I'm male, 21 years of age and originally grew up in Illinois.

I go by my initals over my real name. So please call me DJ. Perhaps if I know you well enough, I'll share that real name. My biggest flaw is I care. As I care about something I tend to pour my heart and soul into the act. Going a step further then daresay most. I have always strived for the best in my efforts. If it's something I sincerly care about. I'll give it my best, even if I end up buckled over. My sweat and blood clouding my vision.

I find myself in Tennessee for previously mentioned flaw. I cared and such gave myself to achieve my goals, but ultimately bring happiness to another. Going hand in hand with my flaw, is my knack for not looking at myself, and my own needs. If I feel like working, I'll give it my all. Even if it means walking until my shoes rub through, or continuing until my back aches and my arms scream in protest at the next movement. But if by doing so I can get the satisfaction knowing I did my best, and the respect of others. I'll continue on, even if my body screams no.

I've been on the internet for a long time. Shorter then some, longer than a few. Since 2002 I've actively frequented this series of "tubes" we call the net. I got my start on www.gametalk.com where I was known as "supersayiandj80" a frequenter of the "Animal Crossing" forum. A game which has ultimately shaped my life in it's own small nudging way. I have found my way here to Gaia in 2003 and have enjoyed my visit every since. I may not have always been happy. But I've enjoyed it nonetheless.

I sit in my life at a crossroads. Do I continue on this path? Do I go right, left? Slam it in reverse and turn around? As I sit, my symbolic engine idling. I can't help but mule over these very questions. Where ever I turn the wheel, I trust will lead me towards happiness. If there was ever a destination laid out on a map I'd like to see. By hell "Happiness" would be ontop of my list.

I've been through a lot in my day. At one point I've refered to myself as "Easy Going, likes to joke around" does that still apply? Can anyone truly classify there selves? Is it as easy as that to place yourself in a small phrase such as that? Given all the every changing factors of life. One certainly can't answer that without second guessing themselves.

Out of all my uncertainties. This much is sure, hope is all we can hold onto. Never give up and keep on moving

~DJ Bothwell