Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

 
 

View User's Journal

Report This Entry Subscribe to this Journal
S e e W h a t s I n s i d e
What's inside of that person you love so much? Why are you attracted to them? ... Don't let them escape. Hold them until the break of dawn.
Mini-Rant.
I dunno. I'm just really random.
People have been pissing me off lately.
D':<
My brother gashed my hand open today.
So it's in pain.
It hurts to type.
Anyway. Trying to stay cheerful.

I've been thinking about a lot of things lately, and I'm really scared about my future.
I mean, think about it.
It's a slim chance to be able to get the job you want.
Yeah, you may have the education, but there's always that possiblitly of not getting it.
Also.
What if you don't find that 'perfect someone' in this world?
That's a huge possibility.
A lot of the married adults I know married each other because there was nobody else.
Or they just settled for each other.
Or the met in a bar.
What the Hell?
I want to meet my husband in college.
I want to meet a guy who's kind, caring, and has a future planned out.
Not somebody who plans on working at his uncle's work.
Or somebody who just wants to 'get by' on the small amount of pay he gets from his job as a waiter.
I know. I'm only fifteen.
But I can't help but think about these things.
It's just... I don't know.
Just part of who I am, I guess.
I also don't want somebody who plans on making a career in being in a band.
That's almost impossible to plan on being in a successful band.
I mean, look at Green Day.
They were found because they were playing a gig at a club.
They never planned on being sucessful [or the greatest band EVER.]

So yeah.
That's my mini-rant.


CaRto0nz
Community Member
  • [09/23/08 02:21am]
  • [08/01/08 10:53am]
  • [07/28/08 03:49pm]
  • [07/17/08 09:19pm]
  • [06/17/08 11:49pm]
  • [06/02/08 07:08am]
  • [06/02/08 05:09am]
  • [06/01/08 08:56am]
  • [05/31/08 10:48am]
  • [05/25/08 09:12am]


  • User Comments: [1]
    "i still hate your brother for that after he told me. and i KNEW I was on speaker phone at the moment. sowwy i told out loud i hated him." crying

    "well, for one thing, it's a good thing you're starting to have that mentallity. it means you want to plan and live for your future."

    "don't let it get to you though. chances may seem slim to you, but don't forget the fact the chance IS STILL THERE. like my job. to become an artist is one of the hardest jobs people can endure, and it could even mean losing myself in the process, but i haven't given up yet. it's my dream to become someone who can change the world through my work, and it is that drive that keeps me alive, even when the world wants me dead."

    "i'm sure you have a dream to Sophia. and i know you well enough to know that you can easily achieve it. you're attitude is an asset to anyone, your work ethic is always positive, and you have a natural learning aptitude, that FAR exceeds my own... YOU HAVE A FREAKIN 4.0 GPA!!! i don't even have that kind of sucess in my dreams. seriously. my sub-concious hates me."

    "having the fear to not suceed in life is normal, but i please beg you to not let it controll oyu. please have the confidence to break through your fear, to achieve youyr drive in life."

    "find your force of will. it's a fundemental power that exists within everyone. what you do with it is simply the worlds perception of it."

    "ohh gez look at me. here i go again. i'm not sure how much of this you really wanna hear from me about this, so i'll begin to close up here..."

    "and about your 'true love' there's no easy path to find him or her. and it never happens out of the blue. love is a virtue you must earn. it is a bond that is CREATED. not something that exists. and infact, it's better that way to. to create that bond with someone is much stronger than something that was destined. unfortunately, my head's spinning, and my heart is pounding at break-neck speeds, so i'm not sure how much i can explain this from a mentor's point of veiw, so i'll try from the point of veiw that... well... i once had with you..."

    "i only wish, that in the past, i could of been there for you more than i was. i was forgetful, ignorint, and stupid about our relationship. i wasen't sure how to completely open up to you, and because of that, it led to my downfall. i made to many mistakes. and because i lost my dream that turned into a reality. now all it is, is just a dream once more."
    ((i still love you))

    "because of those mistikes i made back in the past, i lost the one future i wanted... geez. i better wrap this up before it gets me depressed, and you too..."

    "i learned from these mistakes though, that love is never an easy road. few get to know love, and even fewer get to keep it. but the final destination of that road, it's reward, is definately worth it. to have someone help you through thick and thin to surure both your futures."

    "walking this road, without you. to remake forgotten promises, and to meet you at roads end."

    "god says that life isn't a journey you should walk alone. i finally know what that really means. i just hope, that in the end, you will keep that close to your heart, when you find that, 'SOMEONE JUST FOR YOU'. I failed in that aspect, but i hope you will suceed where i haven't."

    "i'll pray for your future, and that you find that, 'SOMEONE JUST FOR YOU.'


    comment Lucid Ordinance · Community Member · Wed Aug 01, 2007 @ 09:28pm
    User Comments: [1]

     
     
    Manage Your Items
    Other Stuff
    Get GCash
    Offers
    Get Items
    More Items
    Where Everyone Hangs Out
    Other Community Areas
    Virtual Spaces
    Fun Stuff
    Gaia's Games
    Mini-Games
    Play with GCash
    Play with Platinum