You like my picture?
CAUSE I SURELY DON'T!
Yesterday I went over a couple of Cervin's old entries from his old xanga.
You know how bad I was lying to myself?
Like, a [********] load.
I sorta was telling myself that one day he'd come back... because now he's all alone.
Or at least that's what HE thinks.
But anyway... yeah.
I hate feeling like I'm not good enough to be his "wonder girl"... if that's REALLY the way i should be putting it.
So, if anyone ever was curious, yes, I do love Ethan,
But not in THAT way. I just can't.
I keep my promises. He keeps his.
A long time ago I was like
"So, Ethan, did you only IM me because you thought i was hott?"
And he's like
"NO! OF COURSE NOT! Sam... I promise you that I will NEVER think of you as more than just a friend.. i PROMISE.."
And I said
"Good."
What a ******** I am.
That just steams my broccoli to remember that I said that.
That i just practically ruined something that could have been.
Boyfriends are retarded and overrated.
