Oh ******** me sideways
Summer is almost over and im feeling shitty from freaking mood swings and absorbing damn emotions from loads of other people i know or love, and its always the crappy emotions like hate or hostility that make me sick to my damn stomach. But every once in awhile if its strong enough do i get the good emotions like love, understanding, elation or something good.
Oooo i have new powers
Other then being able to sence and or absorb emotions i now know when someone im close to thinks about me. It use to be only when my mom thought of me. And i have diffrent sighns for each person. My mom is a crow and when she thinks or worries about me the crows go wild and i have to shout at them a lil or just take a few moments of silence to order my mind around. When my brother Skye thinks of me his name and sometimes his emotions come into my mind. And i swear i see a freaking wolf out of the corner of my eye. My lil brother cory and dad dont think that much about me so i dont get any emotions or feelings from them and i use to be able to sence Dave but for some odd reason thats gone kafoot...maybe were too far away or something...idk.
s**t man
Skye got into a car wreck on Friday the 13th but he's up and on the comp though he's still not feeling good. He hates the morphine they have him and on i can sence that from him it just eats at me to know that he's forced to undergo something he hates or dislikes. Sure at first seeing him trip out over something stupid was funny till i learned he hated it..now i have this feeling in my chest that wont go away. Like im trapped but i have to stay till something changes. Im always worrying about that man. I know he was suppose to go to Iraq today the 15th and now he cant but s**t man i know i didnt want him to go but i didnt want him to get into a car wreck either...somehow wanting him not to go to iraq might of caused this...im not sure..i know how its my fault and yet somehow its not mine...I cant make up my damn mind...I want to know more about whats wrong with him but i cant get that information if he doesnt know it him self. s**t! Why cant i ever help my family and friends when they need me the most? Better yet why do i always have to feel that im responsible for things? Im only 15 why do i have these freaking abilities? Am i just crazy and think i have these abilities or are they really real and who else has them? Will someone else in the future have these ability? Will they feel the same way i do? Will it be normal in the future to have abilities like these? So many damn questions...and so many unanswerable ones.
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