I know what you mean. Sometimes you wish that people would remember you so you do stupid things. then you figure out it was selfish. Geez........ well i just broke up with my boyfriend turns out he was a lieing b*****d. i guess i shoulda seen it coming. it happens all the damn time why would i think it would be different? why would i have the right to have somthing special rolleyes anyway turns out he was gay........ lol just kidding i wish thats how it was though. he was sending personal messages to my friends between him and me. i was so hurt and it turns out he was blackmailing a friend of mine not to tell me. im sorry but what he said was wrong. i wouldnt give up on someone just because of someone elses word. i guess thats why i seem so damn gullible. even my damn friends saw it. i think they dont trust me which hurts. i don't want them to think i would betray them because im friends with somone else and they think i can be talked into telling that person one of their personell secrets. Geez i hate that i spill all my guts out but it seems so easy you know? noones there to judge you lol. i miss the way it used to be. when i dint care about anyone. especially a certain blonde idiot and a certain bodygaurd brunette. i liked it better when i didnt worry if i didnt here from them after a day or so.... or when i could go days without human contact. i wish i could go back to when my "friend" forgot some plans we had talked about weeks ago and changed them with someone else. i wish i could go back to the day before i went crazy and let my heart go to a person whom i can never forget. one of the few people who ever told me they thought i was pretty. and not because they wanted to make me feel better, but cause it was true. Geez i really need to work on my selfesteem. if i have any left that is...... maybe i should cut my hair to a little past my ears. and then dye the ends red. i think that would be cool............................ i miss my dobe..................... lol i wish.... i could take back my heart from the person who stole it so long ago...
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