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He's moved on and found someone else, while I sit here wondering what I did. My past, present, and future have become a mystery to me. What I'm going to do with myself is unknown. All I can do is sit and wonder. I thought for days that maybe he'll come around if I show him who I really am. Because he doesn't know me. He only thinks he does. I thought I needed him, but I can now see what he's done to me. He isn't good for me any longer. I am no more than a mistake, proof of his imperfection. Nothing but a forgotten fault in all of what is called life. He led me on, and I forgive him. He has found another, and I forgive him. But, I did not matter. I cannot forgive just quite yet for that. I am in a worthless state of being as I sit in sorrow and pain. To be sorry is to know. He says he's sorry, and he says that that's all he can say to me. I don't want to hear it. It's no where close to being good enough. Why did he let me get so close? Didn't he consider my feelings? Didn't he care? ...did he care?... I need someone. I need someone who needs me just as much as I need them. But, I cannot move on. I want to so bad because I am so hurt and I'm sick of it, but I don't know how. He doesn't know what I'm going through because he is not like me. He isn't a passionate person like I am. Never use someone like me, or you will feel horrible for doing it. All I can ask is this: How could you do such a thing to someone who cares for you as much as I do?