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alrite, so mum yelled at me yesterday. i completely lost it and ran into my room to cut myself again. i must have sat there crying and working into my wrist for ages. i went out again after id made cuts down both sides of my forearm to show off wat a crap mother she was, n drank orange juice. i went back into my room n started cuttin agen, makin diagonal slits down the back of my wrist. it looked so prety,, anywhos. so then i started carving into the desk evrythin i hated abt her, that lasted a fair few mins b4 she came in nd took the knife off me. so i just used my scissors instead. then i ran outa my room, grabed a china bowl, ran outside and smashed it on the ground. mum came out looking pissed as usual. it just goes to show that she DOESNT ******** GET IT

she drags me inside and i run to my room to get my mp3 player. sit in the toilet for a while. she actualy came in to get the mp3 off me. wtf can an mp3 do? srsly?? the most i kud do in the TOILET is a) drown myself b) use the razor blade on myself, id alredy cut my wrist to the point wher it felt like my whole forearm was on fire. then she dragged me out into the lounge huggin me n all acting if it was all OKAY. ******** i HATE HER.

its like im supposed to PUT UP with this s**t my whole ******** LIFE!! NOBODYS GOING TO HELP ME!! THEY DONT EVEN WANT TO!!! WATS THE POINT IN BOTHERING??? ******** LIFE IS POINTLESS!!!!