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song+ None .. the silence is eerie. O.x;
book+ Celtic Womans Spirituality
scent+ Chocolate caramel tea. Yurm.
quest+ Get some golds for this months donation items. Zodiac FTW!
upper+ Appointment soon O_X;
downer+ Very depressed
attire+ Black tank, blue pjs
drink+ teaz

Hardeeharrrr. Uhg. Bored. Very.

I dunno. I think I'm gonna quit Second Life. I need to concentrate on my first life more anyway. :/ It's just depressing because I like dressing up my avvie. She's my own little Dream Of Doll. xD

I dunno. This past month has been terribly difficult for me to get through. I've barely been able to get out of bed. I just sleep all the time. I want a job terribly bad, but there's not really any around that won't cause me to have a mental breakdown. Which I'm already in the midst of anyway. Plus everytime I get a job it's like this huge sense of apathy comes down and slaps me around so that I don't care anymore. About anything. I hate that feeling. I want to care!

Also I'm a BIG ******** IDIOT and accidently gave Rand the wrong PS2 cord .. I gave him Ryuu's instead. So now Ryuu is stuck playing on the old crappy PS2 which keeps freezing the games. ;-; I've got to get it back somehow. If he doesn't mail it to us, I'll have to go up there. Probably by myself, which means lots of latenight crying.

I've been waiting and waiting for a ******** appointment with a doctor so they'll give me some meds. Today is finally the day. o_o Watch, I bet when I go up there all they do is give me gobs of paperwork to sign and then tell my my REAL appointment is next month. Well, if that's the case, they might as well sign my death certificate.