Lately, I've been feeling like I don't belong anywhere.
Just... depressed.
I don't know why, though.
I'm happy at times, but then I get really depressed.
I feel like I'm being selfish for being happy, so I become depressed.
It's really weird.
Whenever I'm happy, I'm like that for a few hours.
Then my body and emotions are like, "Oops. She's too happy. Let's make her miserable again."
So, taa daa.
I'm miserable.
Again.
And I really need somebody to talk to.
But nobody's here.
Nobody's online.
Everybody's asleep, so I can't call them.
*Sigh,*
I need to hang out with somebody and vent to them.
Or I need to just stay inside for the rest of my life.
I truly don't think I deserve to be happy.
But whatever.
I'll live, I guess.
God... I hate my emotions.
Maybe I should just... shut them off.
Just... depressed.
I don't know why, though.
I'm happy at times, but then I get really depressed.
I feel like I'm being selfish for being happy, so I become depressed.
It's really weird.
Whenever I'm happy, I'm like that for a few hours.
Then my body and emotions are like, "Oops. She's too happy. Let's make her miserable again."
So, taa daa.
I'm miserable.
Again.
And I really need somebody to talk to.
But nobody's here.
Nobody's online.
Everybody's asleep, so I can't call them.
*Sigh,*
I need to hang out with somebody and vent to them.
Or I need to just stay inside for the rest of my life.
I truly don't think I deserve to be happy.
But whatever.
I'll live, I guess.
God... I hate my emotions.
Maybe I should just... shut them off.
