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Well I just learned some news in fa'e. Yes I'm upset, and its not because of the new guardians. I mean I love Brit, Akina, and Zero. They're all great girls, and I know they will live up to their names.

It just makes me sad now that I think about it, how much I miss Eirane and Smoke. I mean its hard when your close to people not to miss them. Smoke was one of the people that I first met when I first join fa'e. We became friends instantly. I use to talk to her all the time. But then she went missing, and now I wonder what happened, why haven't I seen her.

And Eirnae, she was my big sister, sure we fought a few times, but she was always there for me. And I'm so bloody worried about her that for once since she went missing I'm crying. To this day I'm kicking myself in the a** that I didn't get up on that day she came back online just to let us know she was okay. Now shes gone and I'm sitting here scared and wishing she'd come back to us just so she would at least make all of us smile, and I mean truely smile again.

I'm so scared for them both and really wish they were here. Its hard to even think or talk about them because I try not to cry. I know how much Eirnae loved Shina, and Smoke loved Morion. But what scares me is what will happen to Aylana, Tinania, and all my other people when I have to disappear at the end of Sept. Will I lose them....dear god I hope not. They all mean the world to me. Each of them brought me new friends and given me people I call family.

Sure we fight alot, but would I give up on any of the people. Hell no...everyone in fa'e is awesome, and I care for them all dearly. So when one vanishes I worry, and when they don't come back, I'm scared for them.

Some people say thats a weakness in me, but I don't. I like being a caring person. Yes I get angry once in awhile, but it still doesn't change how much I care about Fa'e HQ, or GMFC, or any other place I'm a part of. I just wish that those that are gone, would let us know and would come back to us. Let everyone know they're okay. Or that they wanted to move on. For me it would put my heart and myself at ease knowing they're okay and didn't drop off the face of the planet.

Okay that it for me, I need to sleep and to calm down. And again I'm happy for the new Guardians, just sad to see the older ones have disappeared.

Krista DarkAngel