We took Derek to the BayBears game on Sunday night. It was my chance to introduce him to my father. I figured that since my dad didn't say much or make and rude comments, that he liked Derek. But of coarse I was proved wrong the next day. My dad sat me down and gave me the you can do much better fatherly speach. I was expecting him to say he'd rather me not just date, or that I should brea k up with him. But instead of being harsh and cold, he said something along the lines of he can't tell me who to date. He rather pushed an aburd notion on me. He suggested DAVID as a dating opportunity. I'm appauled by the idea. I've outgrown people so imature. I desire some one who can keep up with me. This all sounds so vein, but I have to concider my well being as well.
Anyways. One of my friends compared Derek to Tommy in a conversation that we were having. That idea disturbed me completely. I let the notion slide, ignoring the minor similatities. But in the car on the way home Sunday night, the likeness scared me. In the dark car, I looked over at him, and I froze. His hair, his eyes, his half a** smile. It terrified me. But derek is nothing like him. The self destrucive nature, the confusing aura, Derek doesn't have that. I can feel at ease, because I realize I'm not digging myself into that hole anymore.
 [Aku~Soku~Zan] · Tue May 29, 2007 @ 06:12pm · 5 Comments |
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